Happiness is not for sale.

We sold our soul and life to the devil for a tour in Disneyland thinking we would be happy…

But you learn that being happy is about simple things: your mothers’ voice, your dogs’ barking, smell of your grandmothers’ cooking, birth of your friends’ baby, sincere laugter, just one sunset from the room you was raised in, sitting with Ivana on the bench on minus 10 and eating 1€ hot dog, secret drinking with Mia in the “virginity” place with crazy lady opening her basement for us to hide, 12h train ride to Belgrade, my little nephew first “Jelena come back home!”, my sisters graduation…

Happiness is not complicated, don’t ever let anyone tells u otherwise… Go to Philippines, one of the poorest but happiest countries in the world… Happiness is an inside job, an inside effort, it is having an eye to see so many reasons for smile around you, is being alive… Happiness is simple, people are complicated.

Through 5 years of living in luxury (because I thought that is what I need) I have learnt that happiness is not in all the fancy chlotes, fancy food, fancy hotels that come with eternal loneliness, few fake friends, fake love and a dozen of betrayals… Happiness is not in the money you don’t have or things you can’t afford, happiness is nothing about material things.

I have seen every little corner of this world I ever wanted to see and I few of those I never dreamt I will get the chance to see, I have worked so hard and afford myself all luxury people in my country can dream about and I am extremely grateful and blessed for that experience. More than anything, it made me become an ADULT and throw all those childish misconceptions of life and happiness…

Trough past years I become so independent, I have learn to rely only on myself, I have learn biggest life lessons (on the hard way), I have been awake more nights than days, I have slept more on busses and aircrafts than in my bed, from all those cryings in my bedroom I have become so strong, so determined, i started loving myself, I have met myself… Now I know who I am and what I need in order to be happy and most importantly what and who I do not need…

For an amazing experience and big chapter of my life that is about to be over this year THANK YOU! For breaking this delusion that money will bring me what I need, THANK YOU! For all tears, sleepless nights, broken dreams, endless exhaustion, miscalculated priorities, thank you!

I have learnt I never needed the money to be happy and what hurt the most is when I was the most unhappy, there was nothing money could do to make me feel better. Thank you for all the times my wallet was full and my souls was starving, I learnt the most important message in my life as of now!

Today I know what I need in order to be happy and I am going to get it.

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